"mending the broken pieces of my life"

2010-05-02T01:01:00.003+08:00

got this from one my good friend blog (http://dmujah.blogspot.com/).in some ways it kinda touches me...

To: YOU
Date: TODAY
From: GOD
Subject: YOURSELFReference: LIFE

This i s God. Today I will be handling All of your problems for you. I do Not need your help. So, have a nice day. I love you.

P.S. And, remember...

If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do Not attempt to resolve it yourself! Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. I will get to it in MY TIME. All situations will be resolved, but in My time, not yours.

Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now.

If you find yourself stuck in traffic, don't despair. There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.

Should you have a bad day at work; think of the man who has been out of work for years.

Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.

Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.

Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance; think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.

Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror; think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; remember, things could be worse. You could be one of them!

Should you decide to share this to a friend; Thank you. You may have touched their life in ways you will never know!

Now, you have a nice day......

.............GOD..........

=)

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2010-04-22T15:20:00.002+08:00

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Tun Mahathir's lecture series

2010-04-22T14:07:00.004+08:00

bersesak2 dahulu, bergambar2 kemudian...

this is my fourth time attending his lecture and probably will be the last one but i am still so much 'teruja'.

people who knows me would know very well of how much i adore him....

i just hope to be like him someday. i may not make it big internationally, but at least people recognize my contribution and perhaps a portion of my "brilliantness".(i don't know if such vocab ever exist)..

i was too far to get the picture of him

chancellor hall yang pack

can't wait for the convocation day..i am so gonna get my scroll from him....intermission!

mikhail qushaiyyi......

2010-04-21T19:43:00.010+08:00

OMG!! my long time bestfriend is going to have a baby soon!like in a week or two... he is going to be a father! and he is only 22...

i was 13 when i stop playing with "pepek"

i have to admit, though we are no longer as close as what it used to be like years back then and the fact that i know the wife only by name and for the reason that they are living (i mean studying) abroad (or maybe for some other reasons ) i just cannot stop feeling the excitement. perhaps it sounds like "over the top" kind of thing or me just being "syok sendiri" here, but i can feel some kind of attachment to the baby..[-_-"]...like naming the baby with my name or something is cool in which i know is not going to happen....erkkkk!

i know this guy for quite a long time and has been friend through the ups and downs of the important days of my life.though years has flown by, but he's still on my top list of VIP.we might walk different path now, and we might not share the same jokes anymore, but the memories speak for themselves.

i guess that is one reason i anticipate their baby so much though i don't even have a clue how's their life are like now or when was the last time i spoke to him....

but i hope everything is going smoothly for them both and i pray for the best...=D

p/s if you ever read this i guess mikhail qushaiyi will make a great name for a baby boy...i always wanted that name for my boy..=)

fantasy or reality....

2010-04-18T15:08:00.017+08:00

do you believe in fantasy? happily ever after snowhity kind of thingy?its rhymy....sounds cooly isnt it?..

when you were little, the mother would always tell you to become a doctor, engineer,lawyer or whatever huge-pay-check job she can think of and you end up dreaming of becoming a spiderman, cool child detective or in my case the blue flashman.
[i always have this fantasy of me and my cuzzy saving the world in flashman supercool suit. Ijam (the eldest cousin) was the red one, wan the green one, amoi and ida were the yellow and the pink one respectively.we will gathered at nenek's house during the weekend and pretending like saving the world.all the cushions will be arranged into our so called base and hanger was our ultimate weapon..and of course end of the day 'cik mah' (our most fierce auntie)will run amok around the house with our so called'ultimate weapon' and hit us one by one for messing up the house.[-_-"]..so innocent kannn yet it was cool back then.i miss them.=D..off topic!]

we are the flashman from Mukah!

after some years, they send you to school and there you begin to think of money and girls. then you decide you'll become rich and famous because you know you are not jonathan rhyse meyer handsome type nor you posses any of taylor lautner juicy parts that you can attract any girls in school. so you pick one of those things your mother told you as your future career with mountain hopes that it will give you an amazing future.

me in 10 years....pffttttt!!

so you work really hard. you are positive hard work gonna pay you cash some day. luckily enough you have good brain. so you scored every single exams. you are always on top. the world is on your finger tip and you determine enough to succeed. there are times along the way you stumble, but still you wake up walking then running as fast as you can to reach your end point. you fall again. but you never give up just like a child learning to walk. you are flattered when people around you start to look up at you, talking about your successes. you are fortunate indeed you have your family supports and you have best friends that you consider your family behind your back. you feel blessed...

i am the best baby!!

suddenly, when conquering the world is just a step away, you are exhausted. you feel, the end point never has ending. you slow down. along the line, you meet new people.your so called best friends have their own path.you are on your own. you start to view the world from a different angle. "life is not all about how many A's you can bag at school" you tell yourself and "friendship is only part of flashman world" you said. you encounter junctions in your journey and you don't know what path to take. you become afraid of making mistakes. all the dreams you have are shattered. you are the firm believer of no happy ending. you have doubt in you and you missed the old you. the not-so-cool you yet with dreams and hopes. the nerdy you but with purpose in life.

what is blowjob people??

but you keep walking.to follow wherever it brings you. and you meet a new person. this time around it is different.you have intense feeling.a strange one. the one that makes you want to wake up and never go to sleep again. you are in love. everything is so perfect you tell yourself. you are high and addicted. but every dreams have a wake up call.....

bangun!bangun! sahur!!!!

then you realize, love has a hidden truth. it never always come with a happy moments without bringing along the ugly side. you feel like you are the only one who sacrifices a lot. you have doubt. then you meet the family,the friends and you freak out.you have even deeper doubt because its hard for you to fit in because they are just different from you. then "mr money" sneaks in and you both have problem with him. your doubt is at the deepest. you argue, you cry,you fight. you long for someone else who can give you security. who can stand up for you when you need it although it is against the family or friends. the one who is not only showing you the love but proving it to be worth it.you have second thought.

the fight that never has ending..

but you choose to stay. you don't want to be selfish because you know the person loves you intensely.and you do.you understand everyone has their own problem. so you sacrifice because you know love needs sacrifice.you believe in second chance.

you beg your heart to be strong because you know this is what love is all about.

pleaseee another round baby~~~

ironically, you change. you want to be successful again. you have big dreams once again. but this time around it is not all about you. your dream includes your family and your loved one. you want to secure their future. you want them to be happy. and you start to run again......
and you tell yourself, life ain't easy..life's cruel too.keep running..and never giving in because god is fair. He promised to grant success for those who works hard. its a promise and who are you to decide what the end point will be without even trying...

and at some point you learned, no matter how much has been missing along the way, you know you cant turn back and find them. but you knew, the journey is far enough for you to grab new things and replace the missing one. it might not be the same, but it is you that matters...=)

mole on the butt

2010-04-05T23:27:00.003+08:00

i have been wondering .....

its irony when u are totally in love, u r blinded by 'it", but when you open your eyes wider, it doesn't offer more than a just a pain. one minute you feel like you are on the cloud nine, nothing else matter sort of things, but another minute you feel like you are just being punished for raping an 11 years old girl. ouucch!!it kinda hurt...

i have not been much 'being in love' kind of thing. just a few wonderful moments with a few people yet i guess love has make me really a person who demands for security in relationship.

to be in love means you are not only loving that person wholeheartedly but to accept that person's world willingly.that includes the family,the friends, and even a big hairy round mole on the butt.(reminder: i don't have hairy mole on the butt!!)

i feel like plucking this little thing....

i am in love with this particular person. i am deeply in love to the extend that i want to spend my whole life with her. but still, i doubt our future. i just still cannot fit into her world no matter how much i have tried. sigh.........its complicated.i thought when you are in love, nothing else matter. but i guess its only in the song....

its complicated......

BUSTED!!

2010-03-31T18:02:00.007+08:00

one good thing about career fair is, there will be a lot of companies coming to offer you jobs yet no one really get a job by end of the day. some companies are not even relevant to be there when all the students are taking engineering courses and you are offering a job like 'kitchen helper"!!..

driven by my "i-submit-so-many-resume-already-yet-i-got-no-reply" attitude, i approached this one company that i thought weren't supposed to be there.

me: Hi!.good day sir.(putting on my curious look with sparkling eager eyes 0_0)

HR: hi! you looked so interested. if you are looking for a company who can develop your inner potential with a good starting salary ...bla bla,bla [-_-"]....bla,bla,bla...and can i look at your resume then?

me: mmm...sorry sir. i am not interested actually but i just want to ask how much if i want to open up your franchise?

HR: errrr....are you sure?

me: yeah...how much then?

HR: are you somehow anak Datuk or Tan Sri?

me: kinda (smile)

HR: by any chance, who's your father?

me: Zainalabidin..

HR: errrr.......( he's blurr who the hell is that Zainalabidin guy and trying to remember any big shot named Zainalabidin)...

i just couldn't stand my big laugh and i quickly went to talk to a friend and went away from that booth while the guy was still trying to figure out who's my father is...

you just got BUSTED sir...=)..thanks for making my day....=p

2010 resolutions!

2009-12-30T20:07:00.002+08:00

its new year again!

i guess i've never made a list of new year's resolution before...if i did pon, sure enough after a month dh lupa..

so this coming new year, i guess i shud have one...to remind me, wut i've been planning for the whole 2010 ....

1. be selfish. stop listening to others

2. be strong emotionally. you are your own world.

3. stop being indecisive. you are being bullied!remember...

4. stop whining.be thankful

5. work hard. you are to build your own future soon.

6.shred some fat!eat more oat for breakfast

7. start saving if u wanna own a blackberry

8.focus more on what you are doing."poreting" is not healthy

9. buy that shoes!

10. must go to bali....and langkawi, and bukit merah, and JB, and Singapore,

lesson no 1

2009-08-12T12:10:00.004+08:00

one thing i have learned about life today is, never make assumption..

i assume I'll get my money today, i paid my hutang and ate like pig last night and i end up financially bankrupt today
i assume i know where the class is, i got lost this morning
i assume, if i buy ikan as my today's dish it will be much cheaper, i end up paying the same amount of nasi + ayam goreng
i assume i'll wake up fresh this morning, i slept late last night and i feel dizzy now

sigh~~

i have a friend....

2009-08-11T19:59:00.007+08:00

i have this one friend..
he has just got married..

i have this one friend..
she has just got a job...

i have this one friend..
she has just graduated...

i have this one friend..
he has just got his 6 paxs

n me....still here..at the same spot..doing the same thing...[-_-"]
cepatlah masa berlalu..............sigh~~

"x sedar diri"

2009-08-11T00:03:00.007+08:00

i guess i made a wrong move by putting my blog link in the facebook.

i've been sitting here for hours ady dealing,playing,fixing,creating, with this blog thingy, yet i've never made any progress except for the lame background..

its really a pain in the ass to know that i am so "yesterday" with this blogging thing.
2 friends has been linking me in their hi-tech blog.
i feel so small....
sigh~~

i guess i am blessed

2009-08-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

i'm blessed...and i'd love to believe so...

because YOU make feel like one...

thank YOU....

when the fingers do the talking....

2009-08-10T17:38:00.000+08:00

it's been really a while i am away from this so called blogging world...
m so bored that i am driven to create another blog after the abandoned one in the lame friendster.
sigh~~

i've been playing lots of quizzes in fb lately..been wondering how they created the answer to fit your character...
one of my fav one, it says i look like Lee Jun Ki, one of the korean actor...hahaha...but still i thought it was ridiculous to come with such answer by only responding to like 5 questions that are not even related to your physical features...but again it is still my fav one...heheh

i guess, it is just one way to make people so obsess with facebook .....by creating lies that makes you happy....and it does makes me happy though....heheh..